Childless and Loving It!

Tonight baby-sitting has been particularly frustrating. The baby is on strike. He refuses to sleep. I was talking to my friend Eric earlier and he said all this baby-sitting probably makes me want to have a baby soon. I informed him that it was quite the opposite. I don't want kids for a looooong time. I mean yes eventually, but I could not handle this day in and day out. I like to be able to go home to the baby I can stuff in her kennel when she's bad or if I have to go somewhere and not worry about it. I couldn't handle being tied down like that! I tried to watch Fever Pitch tonight, but couldn't because I kept having to attend to the baby that was supposed to be sleeping.
So, update on the Bill situation. First, he drunk texted me, which wasn't so bad. I offered him a ride home because I felt bad. He refused, thus I thought that was the end of it. Well, then I get a drunk dial which I answered because I was afraid he changed his mind about the ride. BAD IDEA. He was convinced that I was "not ok" and that I couldn't live without him. I wanted to hang up on him. I got an apology email today for the text messages, and he didn't even remember the phone call. Lesson learned: screen his calls.
I ate a giant apple cinnamon muffin earlier this evening as a snack/half of dinner. It was rather tasty. I haven't had a muffin in quite some time. It motivated me to look into making the banana nut muffins I have mix for in the cabinet. It's a shame they're so bad for you!

Christmas in June?

So today in church I had a random thought that I really wished it was Christmas time. I started thinking about past Christmas's and family traditions and what not. One of my favorite things to do on Christmas Eve is go to the midnight church service. There is a lot of singing and I see so many people from my community worshipping together and warms my heart (yes, yes I know that sounds corny!). I love that I get to go with loved ones as well. The first couple times my mom went with me, then this past year Ryan went with me. Perhaps I should start a Christmas countdown! I just don't think it will come fast enough!
I'm baby-sitting tonight. The parents finally gave in to the "cry it out" theory of putting their baby to sleep. I'm quite excited about this as I've been basically doing it for the past couple weeks out of exasperation anyway. Now at least I don't have to feel guilty or nervous about getting caught! I think they will be glad they did it because when I let him cry it out during the day he takes MUCH better naps.
I'm starting to get a little nervous about the inevitable situation of seeing Bill again. I hate it when things are awkward! I kind of hope I don't see him until Kaci and Scott's wedding because at least then there will be lots of people there! For those of you that don't know the current situation, we had been emailing back and forth, but then he sent me a text message that said "GOODBYE" in all caps. I took this as he didn't want to talk to me anymore. It makes me sad because I thought we'd at least be able to be friends that could chit chat at parties and what not without awkwardness. Apparently not. And I really hate leaving it like this, but I don't feel like contacting him will help my situation. I guess I'll just chalk it up to a lesson learned.
Coming up rather quickly is another trip to Iowa. This time I'm roadtripping with Emily, Cristina and possibly Katie to go to Jaclyn's wedding. It will be a short trip, but I'll take any trips to Iowa I can get! I need to get on the ball and figure out what I'm going to get Jac and Caleb. I have a rock that I randomly put in their bed (long story) that I'm going to paint, maybe some stamps and I need something else.
It's hard to believe that in less than a week it will be July. The summer as usual is flying by. Then it will be my LAST year of classes. Can't wait for that! I would love to be a career students, but at the same time I'm ready to start making money and settling down.
I think those are all of my random thoughts currently. Sorry for the randomness, but I write them as I come!

Iowa

Well after a long trip home, I back to good old Colorado. I really enjoyed my trip home and both my mom's party and my internship were a success. I learned a ton at the hospital I spent 7 days at. The OT I followed was really good and challenged me to come up with answers on my own which was great. I got to give a couple visual and psych tests to patients which was exciting. I also did manual muscle testing which tests arm strength on a few. It was great to actually do this stuff on patients instead of classmates to see what it is like in real life. I also found out right before I went home that I'll be doing my first 12 week internship at Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN which is very exciting! I think I'll see a lot of really cool stuff up there. I still need to set up my second one, but I'm hoping that perhaps I'll be able to get in at a hand clinic in St. Louis. I need to call them in the next few weeks to see if any of them will take students. If those don't work out, I'll have to find a hand clinic somewhere else, not sure where yet though!
My mom's party went really well (she turned 50 yesterday). They surprised her at work on Friday and I was in on that too so she thought that was all there was and didn't suspect a thing for Saturday night. When she got home her first words were "You can move out!" to me. It was funny. Then she asked if Becka and I bothered to clean the house, which we informed her that in fact we spent the day cleaning. It was great. We had a really good turn out and I think everyone had fun.
I'm trying to get myself into routine now that I'm back. I hate those first couple days after you travel when you're trying to get back into the swing of things and you're all disoriented. Hopefully I'll get pulled together after today. I have the thank you's written for people that helped at my mom's party already and did a bunch of other random things I needed to get done. I need to unpack one last suitcase, then that will be done as well. I have a whole list to get through yet though which includes grocery shopping and cleaning the bathroom and mopping the kitchen floor. I'm hoping that I'll get it all done this week!
Jenny is dragging me to a random meeting thing in Denver on Wednesday. I don't really want to go, but I suppose it won't kill me. I already informed her however that I won't be going to the retreats that this meeting is all about. It's supposed to help you learn to build better relationships and a bunch of other random things like that. Well, not that she wants to go to these seminars either, but Liz asked her to go and we all know how well she says no to people! We'll see how it goes. Hopefully it isn't too painful!
It is weird to think that I have less than a year left of living in Colorado. Time has really been flying by out here! I'll "graduate" next May and I'm sure my parents will move me back to Iowa then so they are only making one trip out here. I think I'll probably go home close to then as well and volunteer at the rehab center in Burlington. That is my current thought at least, subject to change of course! But I don't know where'd I'd work for just a month anyway since I'd really only have June. At least if I do some volunteer it'll be better than being a bum for a month....although thinking about it, it doesn't sound so bad... Scary to think that in only a year and a half I'll be entering the real world. Not fun! :)
Well those are my current random thoughts. I'd really like a nap, but I don't think I'm going to get one unfortunately. Perhaps I'll just work on going to bed early tonight!